kimmp

Thu, 30 Apr 2009 21:40:40 GMT

i think that i have some major complaonts over the views given to me when i was growing up. thank god i developed my own.

Sun, 15 Mar 2009 08:52:59 GMT

What sort of nerd would make such things a desktop wallpaper?

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 18:39:21 GMT

I'm exhausted and want my bad so very badly. I've been wanting my bed for over twelve hours now. :( Two and a half hours until I can pick up Joey, drop him off at my mom's, and go home. Three more hours until I am actually home.

Yesterday Joey told Jarrod's mom that I feed him pretty rocks. I think he was talking about the fish tank. It came with that spongy stuff that makes up the background and bottom and looks like some sort of rock formation. Well it was starting to come apart, tiny pieces would fall off when I cleaned the tank and then I saw The Evil Fish That Kills Everything taking bites out of it so I decided it was time for some gravel. Joey picked out some purple gravel and a plant and I picked out a plant. He's been watching TEFTKE more now and he noticed that he eats the rocks and spits them back out. And he has to tell me about it every time he witnesses it so I know that it excites him.

Then while he was at my mom's yesterday the follow conversation took place, or so my brother posted on my wall on Facebook (which I hate hate hate the brand spanking new Facebook, mine just switched over a couple of hours ago and I seriously yelled in the computer lab, no one is here just my teacher in her office):

My Brother: Joey did you eat at grandma Barb's
Joey: yes
My Brother: What did you eat?
Joey: poop

Yeah...

He's also convinced that I am a lesbian. Every single day, at least ten times if we're together all day, seriously at least ten times, not exaggeratedly ten times, he has to ask me if I have a girlfriend. Every single time I tell him no. Finally the other day I was like "no I am not a lesbian so let's drop it!" out of frustration. He replied with "Haha you're a lesbian, that's funny!"
WTF
I suppose it's better than the usual conversation or some slight variation on it that we have:
Joey: Mommy, you have a penis?
Me: Am I a boy or a girl?
Joey: You a girl, you don't have a penis. Girls don't have a penis.
Me: You're right.
Joey: You want one?
Me: No I am happy being a girl.
Joey: YOU WANT ONE! YOU WANT A PENIS!

I can't handle these conversations!

Wed, 04 Mar 2009 21:46:17 GMT

One year ago tonight I was woken up early by my mom. I had to work that night and was irritated at the notion of what little sleep I get before work being cut into.
Then she said it.
"Your grandpa is dead."

One year ago tonight he had a heart attack.

One year minus a few days ago we said goodbye to, two year old Joey telling us that "Poppa Nor sleepin" and patting his shoulder and saying "Bye bye Poppa Nor, bye bye," a sound that I don't know that anyone who was there to hear it will ever forget.

Thu, 19 Feb 2009 19:26:06 GMT

Ugh. So busy lately. New desktop, new laptop in the near future. I didn't build it, more on that later.
I've been keeping up with Wii Fit, though not logging an hour or more the last two days and tomorrow I won't even touch the thing since it's Friday and I'm not home other than to sleep and shower. I was in shock when my age was 20 today.

Tue, 17 Feb 2009 00:06:00 GMT

fucking ow.

Fri, 13 Feb 2009 18:33:56 GMT

It was quite crazy to hear about the plane crash last night, it was so close to home, like less than 15 miles away close. I was going into work, probably 5 or 6 miles away at the time. One of my friends found out at work, her uncle was flying home that night. She called her mom, he was on the flight right before that one. Needless to say it was the topic of discussion at work all night. It was weird to see the TVs in the cafeterias showing CNN and Fox and all they were talking about was Buffalo. And it wasn't snow.

I'm so not in a homework mood.
But I am tired.

Joey is spending the night at my step mom's tonight and then going to Jarrod's. I am going to come home from work and go to bed in the morning. It will be amazing.

I never got a bill for my car payment this month, I wonder if my address change confused them. I need to call and pay over the phone since it costs $15 to pay online and they usually waive it over the phone. It isn't my fault they didn't send me a bill!

My federal return was deposited into my account today!
My computer, with a pink case, was ordered today. The pots and pans that I wanted aren't on there anymore. :(

I need to go find food. I don't really like the food here that much, it's so unhealthy and ick. :( Perhaps I will post-spam you today and update more later.

Stolen link from setfiretolife that is well worth posting

Fri, 06 Feb 2009 17:42:18 GMT

Seeing this is just pretty crazy.

Wed, 04 Feb 2009 22:26:27 GMT

I feel like crap today. Not sick crap, just blahy crappy crap crap.

You might be a geek if you use " tags" in LJ entries and proper "" tags

Tue, 03 Feb 2009 19:24:02 GMT

My W-2's from work finally showed up yesterday, nearly a week after pretty much every one else's. I filed, and my return was accepted this morning. So in roughly two weeks or hopefully less my bank account shall grow! I have always filed early on, right around now since Sallie Mae doesn't release student loan interest information until the last day in January, it usually takes about a week and a half. I'm definitely getting a new computer and probably a cheap laptop as well.

I have two rants.

One is to the other tenants in my building. Every single time I have gone down there to do laundry I have to empty out the lint trap. To me that just seems rude to leave your lint in there for someone else to clean out. I always clean mine out, except for right now I probably won't because I'm washing diapers and diapers don't really generate lint. I know it's all clean lint but still just clean it out!

The other is to women everywhere really, but specially at school and at work. Ladies, you either a.)are in college or b.) work at a major financial institution in an office building. In other words, we are all adults. We are all capable and at least semi-intelligent people. No one is actually drooling on themselves (although I question it some days) or is just learning to use the potty on their own. Adults. So why is the bathroom constantly a mess? I don't just mean toilet paper and broken automatic flushers (although if it's a certain time or you poo please make sure they flush, they do have buttons), I mean boogers wiped on the stall walls, and blood on the walls, and leaving the nice little trash receptacle open and/or your garbage everywhere. They are in there to make our lives easier, so you don't have to leave the stall with your trash (although switching to a menstrual cup means no trash and is pretty awesome). They can be removed.

</rant>

Last night I was talking to Jarrod, I was having some issues with some programming homework and finding a decent alternative to Flash that uses .fla files for Linux. (Flash4Linux if anyone cares) I then sent him a link to my mad lib I wrote with PHP for class because it's funny and he knows PHP and yeah, whatever. I also sent him a link to Joey wearing his Gameboy shirt because Jarrod has the same one. He said he really misses him and I said that he misses him too, he was asking for him yesterday actually. Then the next message that followed I had no idea what to say, in fact that was what I ended up saying. That he lies there at night sometimes wishing that we were there and shit wasn't so screwed up. Honestly what do I say? A part of me wishes that at times but I'm in love with someone else and not enough of me wishes that to change the way that things are? Seriously. No clue what to say.

I have not posted pictures in awhile

My wonderful mother got him hooked on watching TV before bed. It's a habit I'd like to break soon. He is "checking myspacebook".

I had been up for far too long here. Excuse the bags. I told him to smile...this what I got.

See, you have to love the shirt.

Sun, 01 Feb 2009 16:19:18 GMT

Thank you to those who replied to my post the other day. I appreciate it.

I am so sick of Western New York winters. Just was I was feeling desperately hopeless about them and hating January it turns to February and the high for today is 40! We were down in the single digits quite a bit, although I don't think we ever got below 0 without the windchill. It's currently 38 and I almost want to go out and enjoy it. I know, sad. Wednesday we are back down to 10 as a high though. :(

I made a spinach-blueberry-strawberry-banana-agave nectar smoothie for breakfast this morning. It was quite good despite its appearance. I also feel quite energetic but that could be the large amount of sleep I finally got last night.

Last week was bad. I slept before work Wednesday my usual few hours, but I also slept Tuesday night since I had off. Thursday night I slept an hour. Friday night I got about three, I got home from work with enough time to get Joey and I ready to go to the school all day, from 9-5 for work, I have to be at regular work at 10:30 pm. It takes a little under a half an hour to get home from school and I give myself at least a half of an hour to get to work but it doesn't take that long at all.

Okay, paper and programming time. :/

Question Time for Parents (and anyone else who wants to answer)

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 18:56:49 GMT

So I know that I have several parents on here so I shall ask this. On parentcenter there is a heated debate going on about leaving children in the car unattended. Is it okay to run into the gas station if you lock your car and can see it at all times? Is the woman with two small children, if I remember correctly an infant and a toddler, insane for running into Starbucks and the bank and whatnot while her kids are in the car? What about grabbing something just inside your door if your child is in the driveway? What factors into this? Weather? Temperature? Duration? Napping?

My Thoughts

There have been a couple of times where I didn't have my card on me or for whatever reason I was going to pay cash for my gas. Joey was with me.
I didn't get gas. It didn't feel worth it to me to unbuckle him just to pump some gas and I certainly wasn't going to leave him alone in the car.

Going into Starbucks or something similar? No way. He will have to be significantly older before I would attempt a trip like that while he was alone. And I do mean significantly. Someone suggested 12. I'm not sure exactly how old, I would have to base it upon his maturity, how busy the place was, the area, etc. And at that point I'm not buckling and unbuckling which is my biggest complaint about getting in and out of the car. It takes so freaking long to load him on up in there. One more year until he can go into a booster seat. This will be an immense relief.

Running into the house, once or twice I've done it with the car in the driveway at my mom's house and I locked the car and things were literally just inside the door. I won't lie. I've had to run into the house when people were home, like actually upstairs. I called my mom and asked her or someone to come outside for a minute.

Sun, 25 Jan 2009 16:23:11 GMT

My classes this semester aren't too bad.
For my portfolio class that is pretty much all we do, create a portfolio. We make a resume and a lovely flow chart for the site but that's pretty much it. No book, no tests, and one hour per week and we don't even meet every week.

Multimedia Production I shouldn't be bad at all, depending on what track people in my major are it's a very early course. It's just learning Flash and I imagine that the ActionScripting should be no issue considering my programming background. It's a normal class with tests and projects and a small book on using Flash.

Database-Driven Websites has no actual book but I do believe I am picking up a book on PHP and MySQL, if anyone has recommendations let me know. She recommends the Visual Quickstart Guides. Again, normal class aside from the no book. I prefer having an actual printed book for reference. It's just the way that I operate. When our JavaScript book only came on disc, and he found out at the last minute I went onlne and purchased the book.

Computer Programming Logic II is just a continuation of my very first semster at my school, Fall '07. I did not forget everything I have learned. It's all C++ and online. I took the first one online and got an A-. It isn't a required course but I like programming and I figure a class like this will help build up my credibility and whatnot.

Intro to Philosophy, my only non-computer-based course but it's online so it is. He wants very regular discussion posts. I have one due today, on a Sunday. We have a paper due next week on the old "if a tree falls in the forest and no one is around to hear it does it still make a sound" crap. I am finding that I think outside of the box more than my classmates. He needs to rate my posts so that I can see if this is a good or a bad thing.

If anyone has a facebook and wants to add me, mine is here.

Tue, 20 Jan 2009 17:03:07 GMT

How awesome is a three year old who would rather watch Obama than Cars, his favorite movie ever?!

Mon, 19 Jan 2009 18:49:19 GMT

This morning on my way home from work I realized something. As I am sure you know, it's MLK Day. My dad's cancer was first diagnosed on MLK Day, the doctor called him in despite it being a holiday to discuss the results. This was five years ago, and with the leap years in there the holidays match up on the same date five years later.
I remember the night that he told me that he had cancer. I sat at my computer Googling new terms and going through pages of results, searching for an answer that Google wouldn't be able to give me, would my dad die from this? If someone with oral cancer can make it five years with the disease in remission their survival rate goes up dramatically. Less than one year after his initial diagnosis the cancer returned again, less than fourteen months after his initial diagnosis the cancer returned yet again and his body couldn't fight it any longer.

I then began to think about what a difference five years makes in a person's life. Five years ago I had stupidly just gotten engaged. The relationship wasn't that healthy. I was living in the suburbs of Cleveland. I was "taking a year off" from school but Dad's cancer and my engagement kind of extended that year. I was working at a Cinnabon (no lie, I kind of miss that at times, Mochalatta Chills and Strawberry Minibuns were also delicious back in the day). I had few responsibilities really. I was making a lot of dumb mistakes in life.

Let's fast forward five years. I'm back in Western New York, working full-time at Citi (in a department that is making money!) and in school full-time. I'm much closer to my family in all aspects. I intelligently ended that relationship, although I'm not sure how long it would have taken me to do so if Jarrod hadn't made me see a lot of things. I have an amazing son who, although unplanned has been wonderful with helping my family and I heal from the loss of Daddy and then Grandma and Grandpa within the next ten months. He acts a lot like his "Grandpa Joe" in so many ways although he never met him, I was just days pregnant when Dad died. Although Jarrod and I may not be together we can at least talk now. I have some great friends. I am far happier than back then. The only real negative differences are number one, I'm getting old. Twenty-six is not far away at all and that's kind of scary. And the obvious number two, my dad is gone. Gone before any of the five of us graduated from college, got married, or had children. Gone before my three sisters even went away to college, graduated high school, went to prom, or got their license.

Sat, 17 Jan 2009 19:53:32 GMT

So let me tell you a bit more about our lives here in our apartment, which is probably twice as big, if not more, than the apartment in Medina. I happily have a table set up in the dining room for sewing and whatnot and made pillows for the couch and I am working on curtains for in my room, all out of fabric found in my Grandma's basement. I love, love, love the fabric I used for the pillows and when I saw it I was waiting for just the right thing.
I have been happily doing yoga regularly again now that I have the space and privacy to do so. Well, privacy if you count Joey telling me to "do this one" and getting into something resembling downward-facing dog every once in awhile. :) After picking up my DVD for the first time in so long I have discovered that my yoga class this past semester really strengthened my back dramatically. I'm kind of flabby right now but I am able to fairly easily roll from a reclining position to Halasana/plough pose which looks like this:

We are eating better than before, living at my mom's really had me eating far more crap. Joey too, sadly. Our diet was still better than probably the average American's diet (the flab is quite in part due to my liking of Carmellos far too much lately, I'd be willing to bet) but it wasn't what it used to be.

We've made art projects and cookies now that I have room to do things and keep our stuff accessible.

Belle adjusted to the move quite well, she is not thrilled with me not leaving food out for her 24/7, but I feed her once a day and am cutting her down to the recommended amount for a cat her size. She has been eating far too much I have realized.

I am happily able to begin bringing more plants back into my home. My mom's house is dark and she only has plants in the kitchen window because of this and the cats' tendency to eat them. Belle does not have a problem with this. Of my plants the only thing that survived living there was my ficus bonsai. I was worried about it, when I brought it in the house for the winter it got mad at me and shed all but two of its leaves. It is now doing wonderfully. I am growing a few herbs, have a clipping from one of her plants in water, it is getting roots, and I purchased a China Doll plant and a Hoya carnosa. I love plants and think they are an important part of any home. I would love to get an orchid but I am afraid of killing it.

Joey thinks that it's the coolest thing ever that there are a number of pictures of him on the wall. It's adorable.

I have several pictures of my father around the house; one on the fridge of him, my sister Ashley, and myself before prom in 11th grade, a picture of my Grandma Prell, Dad, and I after graduation in a frame, a 5 x 7 of my parents on their wedding day, and a double frame with a picture of my dad when he was little with a poem on the other side that my sister made up for all of us for Christmas. Joey sometimes asks who he is and I tell him that he's his Grandpa Joe. He always wants to see him which set me into tears the other day later on when I was thinking about it.

I am now able to make my bedroom more of a peaceful haven, free from clutter and electronics. I find that I am sleeping much better. There is some clutter. I have yet to get Joey's dresser from Medina so his clothes are in three boxes in my room but other than that it is quite nice after having such a tiny space and with so much stuff at my mom's house.

I think that about sums things up for now. :)
I'm rather hungry and I think I shall go eat something now.

Thu, 15 Jan 2009 20:29:01 GMT

I'm considering growing and therefore eating/cooking with my own sprouts. I occasionally buy them in the store but not often, they can't be that fresh. Anyone on my list do this?

Thu, 25 Dec 2008 06:31:19 GMT

So the apartment is mine, has been since Tuesday, they turned the power on today. I moved some stuff, including mattresses so we can sleep there now. We're at my mom's tonight though. I am not sure how much I'll be online until I have my Internet set up. Someday I will catch up with friend's list reading. I'll probably sleep there tomorrow before work. It should be far quieter.

I'm rather sleep so...Happy/Merry Whatever you may celebrate!

Thu, 18 Dec 2008 18:55:01 GMT

On New Year's Eve I'll be moving. After over a year of sharing a too small space with too many people I'll have my own space. Just Joey and I sharing a kitchen, living room, dining room, bathroom, and two bedrooms and three small closets aside from the bedroom closets. It's more room than I've ever had to myself in my life. My old apartment was tiny compared to this one. I grew up with three sisters and a brother. I've lived in dorms with roommates.

A New Year, a new place to call home.

I'll be so happy to unpack my stuff that's been sitting in storage. I'll get to sleep in my bed, not this borrowed little thing because my bed won't fit in my room with all of my stuff. I won't have the hum of the fish tank in my room when I sleep because I can put it any room I desire.

I can create an electronics-free sanctuary to sleep, full of harmony and peace.

I can practice yoga again in my livingroom. I miss that.

Sat, 13 Dec 2008 04:36:34 GMT

If I could stop coughing life would be far more awesome.
I'm on vacation until Thursday now!
My chest hurts from coughing.
My room is a disaster.
I've been doing too much homework to care.
But I don't NEED to do much more this weekend.
I spent the entire 8 hours in the lab working on both sites for advanced web design.
I'm regretting choosing Peter Pan Guy's site to re-do. It's awful looking at those pictures.
One day of classes and two days of finals left to go!

Sun, 30 Nov 2008 07:34:23 GMT

Nifty game that does good things!

Fri, 28 Nov 2008 04:59:12 GMT

Best case scenario--grandparents' old house gets closed on this upcoming week.
Worst case scenario--grandparents' old house gets closed on in three weeks

Finally, finally, finally I can get my money, pay for 1/2 the year's rent, buy some more furniture, and get out!
But poo to moving just before Christmas, what a pain!

Thu, 27 Nov 2008 01:16:48 GMT

Things I never thought I would say to a nearly-three year old: "get the blue penis out of your mouth". Before you go calling CPS read my story. :) You know those water snake things that slide inside outish? I don't really know how to describe them. Well, I have a blue one from years ago and Joey picked up and informed me that it was a blue penis. And put it into his mouth. As much as he may be off-the-wall insane some days I will miss this age when it passes.

Yesterday after dinner his shirt was a mess so I took it off of him, he doesn't like to be shirtless so immediately began asking for a shirt on. I gave him a choice, bath right then or a new shirt and he would have to wear underwear and use the potty. He opted for the underwear, happily stepped into them and spent an hour and a half to two hours dry and being hounded to use the potty. We tried tonight but he had an accident, he was busy playing and didn't want to stop and pee I think, I had just asked him and he was playing with some Lightning McQueen toys.

Sun, 23 Nov 2008 22:29:34 GMT

My son went to my step mom's last night and therefore went to church this morning. My sister took him out of there when he began repeatedly announcing "I poop in the church!" He does not typically announce his pooping unless you ask him if he pooped.

Sun, 16 Nov 2008 20:38:15 GMT

Yay Animal Crossing: City Folk! I'll give out my information if anyone on here has it/is getting it.

kimmp

My Brother: Joey did you eat at grandma Barb'sJoey: yesMy Brother: What did you eat?Joey: poop

Stolen link from setfiretolife that is well worth posting

You might be a geek if you use " tags" in LJ entries and proper "" tags

Question Time for Parents (and anyone else who wants to answer)

My Brother: Joey did you eat at grandma Barb's
Joey: yes
My Brother: What did you eat?
Joey: poop